...this Love, this "he"

So I have loved "him" for quite some time. "He" has been a lot of my "1st". I just cant seem to get "him" out of my system, no matter how hard I try "he" is a part of me. Is this love, is this lust, is this infatuation, what is this...this thing that feels like love?..."he" stole my heart and "he" refuses to give it back..."he" came into my life like a thief in the middle of the night...and at the time it just seemed so right. What is this that i feel for "him"?...is this love, is it genuine, is it pure, is it right or is it wrong...what is this thing that seems like love?..."he" makes me feel like no other ever could no matter how hard they try, they will fail because they just do not and can not compare...is "he" the one that was born to be my destiny, is "he" the one that was made to change my life so completely...is "he" the one that is to forever be a part of me...what is this thing that feels and looks and seems like love...but whats more who or what is this "he"??