ok so i was at my friends parents house paying a lil visit...when Deidra decided to let the kids dance b4 leaving..it was the cutest thing...Taryn and Jourdan getting down...lol.....enjoy... we did

Such a wild sleeper

Just thought it would be cute to post some of my favorite pix of Jourdan sleeping. I love to watch him sleep, it is soooo precious and not to mention funny most times...it starts with the most recent being this morning to months ago

A New Point

I feel like there is a newness headed my way, something feels different but I cannot say. I feel a change coming and it has me kind of excited yet fearful, because I am not sure of what it could possibly be, how can I? I woke up this morning feeling real good(tired but good)...somethings coming my way...and I cant wait. There's is always a BLESSING after the storm. I feel a sense of calm coming over me... I feel like I'm reaching a new point.

until next time
~NuBnQn

Where did it go wrong?

So I sit here thinking about all the good time that we had, and I miss it. I miss it so bad that it makes my heart ache. I miss it so much that I want nothing more than to have it once again. I sit here and I think back and then I look at where we are in the present, and I don't see what we had, happening again. Thinking that hurts but its a harsh reality that I have had to face or come to grips with.

I wonder where and when it all went wrong, I wonder if there was something that could have been done to keep it from happening, could we have stopped it, could we have made it right, or was this our destiny?

We used to be "it", we had it so good, then things changed, slowly they changed, and now it seems as if there is no turning back, how did we get to this point?

I kept hoping that we were just going through a rough patch and that we would get through it because our love was so strong. We could get through anything, is what i thought. I kept hoping that we would work it out, we would make it right, things would get better, we would be OK. I kept hoping. I kept believing, I kept loving, I kept trusting, I kept the faith. Now I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I don't know what to do or say to make you see, that I want and wanted to make this right, I want and wanted us to make it right, I was willing to do what ever it took. I just cant help but wonder if you feel or felt the same.

I sit here and I think, we had it all, things were great, we were happy, we had love, we had trials, we had each other....but where did it go wrong?

My "weird" lil boy

So on Tuesday we took Jourdan to a birthday party at this place called Monkey Joes, its this place with a lot of inflatable bouncing things for kids (big and small lol) and everything was going great because he is usually scared of the boucing and will never get up, but he was running and trying to jump and bouce all over the place he was sooo happy and was having a good time until......he starting biting people !!!! He bit my friends little girl TWICE on the arm and then he bit some random little girl on the arm! He got her really bad (didnt break the skin tho) I was soooo embarrassed, Brandon put him in time out and dhe was so upset, I wanted to spank that behind, but there were too many "people" there, cant have them call dss and telling me how to disipline my child hahaha, so we just did the "when in public thing". It is so embarrassing to have your child bite another child, but i truly belive that he wasnt doing it to be mean, he was just sooo excited and he did it without really realizing because he stops and thinks about it when he is playing with me...hmmm idk but i know we are going to break that habit ASAP

On another note he hasnt been eating a lot lately, on the day of the party he barely ate anything all day, i mean hardly nothing!!! Well this morning he wakes up at like 5 something talking bout a cracker or something,pretty much wanting something to eat, i was sooo mad lol because i was like if your weird lil butt would eat during the day when we offer offer offer and yes offer again for you to eat....guess what you wouldnt be hungry! but being the mommy that i am i got up (cranky i wont lie lol) and got him a lil snack....that guess what he would not eat! and i was like boy you just better take it to sleep and after a while he did .....and he still is asleep....i love my weird lil man
until next time....