SO INCREDIBLY GLAD ITS FRIDAY!!!...excited about Jourdans party and ready for it 2 b over at the same time lol
~LoveIs4Ever~

some recent pics

Here are some recent pics that we finally took as a family!!!

It has been a very long time

Ok so it has been sooo incredibly long since I last posted anything....I have been quite the busy lady. I moved in with my grandmother to help her put for a few months since she moved back to Fayetteville, and my lilttle cousins live there also and its great because they love playing with Jourdan and he loves them just the same(they are in middle school). Its great also because my gramdma watches Jourdan while I'm at work, he is such the character. So school is back in and it is somewhat eventful with the kids, we got a new student last week and he is a trip lol...ima break him soon. Now about work, im not really all that happy with it at this point. I want to do something else, come out of the classroom i guess for a bit. It kinda bothers me because I feel like i have no idea where my life is headed. I want to go back to school, I just want my degree, I think I owe myself that, as well as Jourdan.

On another note Jourdan just turned 2 yesterday!!!! How freaking crazy is that?? I love that lil moster so much. As you can see above he is getting to be a big boy(photo didnt place in the right spot but its ok)lol...well we are having his party on sunday at Monkey Joes and i am very excited about it...i think he is really gonna enjoy himself. He is on Toy Story really hard all he talks about is Woody and Buzz lol and he has a lot of their toys lol, I want to take him to see the movie cus i think he might sit and watch it, but Brandon isnt all that sure lol.

Well I think i could go on and on forever trying to play catch up but that would take for ever, so hopefully i can make time to update and get online more, or atleast make updates from my phone

until nexttime.....

ok so i was at my friends parents house paying a lil visit...when Deidra decided to let the kids dance b4 leaving..it was the cutest thing...Taryn and Jourdan getting down...lol.....enjoy... we did

Such a wild sleeper

Just thought it would be cute to post some of my favorite pix of Jourdan sleeping. I love to watch him sleep, it is soooo precious and not to mention funny most times...it starts with the most recent being this morning to months ago

A New Point

I feel like there is a newness headed my way, something feels different but I cannot say. I feel a change coming and it has me kind of excited yet fearful, because I am not sure of what it could possibly be, how can I? I woke up this morning feeling real good(tired but good)...somethings coming my way...and I cant wait. There's is always a BLESSING after the storm. I feel a sense of calm coming over me... I feel like I'm reaching a new point.

until next time
~NuBnQn

Where did it go wrong?

So I sit here thinking about all the good time that we had, and I miss it. I miss it so bad that it makes my heart ache. I miss it so much that I want nothing more than to have it once again. I sit here and I think back and then I look at where we are in the present, and I don't see what we had, happening again. Thinking that hurts but its a harsh reality that I have had to face or come to grips with.

I wonder where and when it all went wrong, I wonder if there was something that could have been done to keep it from happening, could we have stopped it, could we have made it right, or was this our destiny?

We used to be "it", we had it so good, then things changed, slowly they changed, and now it seems as if there is no turning back, how did we get to this point?

I kept hoping that we were just going through a rough patch and that we would get through it because our love was so strong. We could get through anything, is what i thought. I kept hoping that we would work it out, we would make it right, things would get better, we would be OK. I kept hoping. I kept believing, I kept loving, I kept trusting, I kept the faith. Now I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I don't know what to do or say to make you see, that I want and wanted to make this right, I want and wanted us to make it right, I was willing to do what ever it took. I just cant help but wonder if you feel or felt the same.

I sit here and I think, we had it all, things were great, we were happy, we had love, we had trials, we had each other....but where did it go wrong?