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SO INCREDIBLY GLAD ITS FRIDAY!!!...excited about Jourdans party and ready for it 2 b over at the same time lol
~LoveIs4Ever~

some recent pics

Here are some recent pics that we finally took as a family!!!

It has been a very long time

Ok so it has been sooo incredibly long since I last posted anything....I have been quite the busy lady. I moved in with my grandmother to help her put for a few months since she moved back to Fayetteville, and my lilttle cousins live there also and its great because they love playing with Jourdan and he loves them just the same(they are in middle school). Its great also because my gramdma watches Jourdan while I'm at work, he is such the character. So school is back in and it is somewhat eventful with the kids, we got a new student last week and he is a trip lol...ima break him soon. Now about work, im not really all that happy with it at this point. I want to do something else, come out of the classroom i guess for a bit. It kinda bothers me because I feel like i have no idea where my life is headed. I want to go back to school, I just want my degree, I think I owe myself that, as well as Jourdan.

On another note Jourdan just turned 2 yesterday!!!! How freaking crazy is that?? I love that lil moster so much. As you can see above he is getting to be a big boy(photo didnt place in the right spot but its ok)lol...well we are having his party on sunday at Monkey Joes and i am very excited about it...i think he is really gonna enjoy himself. He is on Toy Story really hard all he talks about is Woody and Buzz lol and he has a lot of their toys lol, I want to take him to see the movie cus i think he might sit and watch it, but Brandon isnt all that sure lol.

Well I think i could go on and on forever trying to play catch up but that would take for ever, so hopefully i can make time to update and get online more, or atleast make updates from my phone

until nexttime.....

ok so i was at my friends parents house paying a lil visit...when Deidra decided to let the kids dance b4 leaving..it was the cutest thing...Taryn and Jourdan getting down...lol.....enjoy... we did

Such a wild sleeper

Just thought it would be cute to post some of my favorite pix of Jourdan sleeping. I love to watch him sleep, it is soooo precious and not to mention funny most times...it starts with the most recent being this morning to months ago

A New Point

I feel like there is a newness headed my way, something feels different but I cannot say. I feel a change coming and it has me kind of excited yet fearful, because I am not sure of what it could possibly be, how can I? I woke up this morning feeling real good(tired but good)...somethings coming my way...and I cant wait. There's is always a BLESSING after the storm. I feel a sense of calm coming over me... I feel like I'm reaching a new point.

until next time
~NuBnQn

Where did it go wrong?

So I sit here thinking about all the good time that we had, and I miss it. I miss it so bad that it makes my heart ache. I miss it so much that I want nothing more than to have it once again. I sit here and I think back and then I look at where we are in the present, and I don't see what we had, happening again. Thinking that hurts but its a harsh reality that I have had to face or come to grips with.

I wonder where and when it all went wrong, I wonder if there was something that could have been done to keep it from happening, could we have stopped it, could we have made it right, or was this our destiny?

We used to be "it", we had it so good, then things changed, slowly they changed, and now it seems as if there is no turning back, how did we get to this point?

I kept hoping that we were just going through a rough patch and that we would get through it because our love was so strong. We could get through anything, is what i thought. I kept hoping that we would work it out, we would make it right, things would get better, we would be OK. I kept hoping. I kept believing, I kept loving, I kept trusting, I kept the faith. Now I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I don't know what to do or say to make you see, that I want and wanted to make this right, I want and wanted us to make it right, I was willing to do what ever it took. I just cant help but wonder if you feel or felt the same.

I sit here and I think, we had it all, things were great, we were happy, we had love, we had trials, we had each other....but where did it go wrong?

My "weird" lil boy

So on Tuesday we took Jourdan to a birthday party at this place called Monkey Joes, its this place with a lot of inflatable bouncing things for kids (big and small lol) and everything was going great because he is usually scared of the boucing and will never get up, but he was running and trying to jump and bouce all over the place he was sooo happy and was having a good time until......he starting biting people !!!! He bit my friends little girl TWICE on the arm and then he bit some random little girl on the arm! He got her really bad (didnt break the skin tho) I was soooo embarrassed, Brandon put him in time out and dhe was so upset, I wanted to spank that behind, but there were too many "people" there, cant have them call dss and telling me how to disipline my child hahaha, so we just did the "when in public thing". It is so embarrassing to have your child bite another child, but i truly belive that he wasnt doing it to be mean, he was just sooo excited and he did it without really realizing because he stops and thinks about it when he is playing with me...hmmm idk but i know we are going to break that habit ASAP

On another note he hasnt been eating a lot lately, on the day of the party he barely ate anything all day, i mean hardly nothing!!! Well this morning he wakes up at like 5 something talking bout a cracker or something,pretty much wanting something to eat, i was sooo mad lol because i was like if your weird lil butt would eat during the day when we offer offer offer and yes offer again for you to eat....guess what you wouldnt be hungry! but being the mommy that i am i got up (cranky i wont lie lol) and got him a lil snack....that guess what he would not eat! and i was like boy you just better take it to sleep and after a while he did .....and he still is asleep....i love my weird lil man
until next time....

I have not posted anything in a few days. I have been soooo incredibly busy with trying to pack and move things into the other house, working any one of my jobs, and keeping up with Jourdan or other family things going on. I was looking through my pics on my computer and i realized this is the only pic that i have of the two of us where he is actually looking!!! and yea i like it even tho he headbutted me in my lip and he's not dressed, and it is a few months old...He's lookin and that is what i love lol. well yea this is random as well, but there are some things that i want to blog about i just have to get my words together and find the time...until next time

~NuBnQn~

CoMpLeTe RaNdOmNeSs...

So I am sitting here watching "the golden girls" and I rather love the show...Ashley if you are reading this here's to us lol. I am sitting here in the bed with my laptop and my son, he is sleeping (wild might I add) and he keeps half way waking up asking for his "nana" and his cuppoo (cup) then drifting back off, i have a feeling that its gonna be a somewhat restless nite, but thats what mommy life is like.

I feel like i am kind of in a mood and feel "some type of way" but im not really sure of what it is. I feel like there is something that needs t obe said and done, but I dont know what it is.

I am completely new to this "blogging" but I think I may like it once i get the hang of it, i like seeing other people's blogs(the one's that are in english) I hope to get my friends on here and learn some new things from new and random people.

Like i said in the title this is complete randomness all due to the lack of sleeping....

Jourdan!!!

Well the other day Jourdan went pee-pee in the potty for the second time. It couls be more but I have been kind of slacking in the trining department *tisk tisk*. He is such a smart little boy, he is learning things so quickly and something new everyday. I love this lil boy so incredibly and there absolutely nothing I wouldn't do for him.

what a day 2 be alive...
*ByondBeautifl*

...this Love, this "he"

So I have loved "him" for quite some time. "He" has been a lot of my "1st". I just cant seem to get "him" out of my system, no matter how hard I try "he" is a part of me. Is this love, is this lust, is this infatuation, what is this...this thing that feels like love?..."he" stole my heart and "he" refuses to give it back..."he" came into my life like a thief in the middle of the night...and at the time it just seemed so right. What is this that i feel for "him"?...is this love, is it genuine, is it pure, is it right or is it wrong...what is this thing that seems like love?..."he" makes me feel like no other ever could no matter how hard they try, they will fail because they just do not and can not compare...is "he" the one that was born to be my destiny, is "he" the one that was made to change my life so completely...is "he" the one that is to forever be a part of me...what is this thing that feels and looks and seems like love...but whats more who or what is this "he"??

Just getting started

So I have been hearing all this talk about "blogging" and I have always been like what is all the hype about...then with all the happenings in my life I figured why not give this blogging a try? WHat a way to get some of these thoughts a feeling out of the space of my head, what a wat to express my feelings, whether it be just to myself by releasing it or for friends and the "world" to see, either way it can be an outlet. So with all that said....we'll see where this leads me....until next time
~Nubnqn~